I'm so sick of absolutely everything. I can't believe I'm doing this, but I'm blogging in school right now. To me, that seems absolutely ridiculous..
I'm so sick of school. I know everyone normally is, but I hadn't felt it until now. I continuously try to feel the confidence and the happiness that theater gives me, but I can't help but feel like I'm losing some people in my life and I'm also losing that sensation of happiness that I had.
I hope this is just a passing feeling, and won't last long. I think I'm just having a bad day.
I'm just so fucking sick of school, and life, and everything.
it's funny how history tends to repeat itself, no matter how much you try to stop it.
Please let this just be a bad day.
23 days. I need to get out.
I'll talk later, maybe. I'm not feeling up to it right now.
This is the feeling I had going into school after summer. That's when I wanted to just quit and be done..... like dropout done. So then I started thinking: my mom and I don't get along at all, I hate school which I used to love, what should I do? I looked into ways to change scenery and help recover my lost motivation. Homeschooling "so I could focus on horseback riding", moving out "so I could live life a little less stressed", boarding school "so I could be less stressed without my mom and have some daily structure", military boarding school "so I could be less stressed without my mom, have a specific daily structure, and be forced to do well in school". I chose military boarding school. People ask why I chose it, I say it's a good school. Don't get me wrong it's an awesome school, but so is West..... the real reason is I need to get away, a new place with new people to reignite my passion of school. So you get the 100% real and legit reason for why I'm going to military boarding school next year.
ReplyDeleteDon't feel down, if you get this feeling at the end of the year it's totally normal.
I got it at the beginning and needed to fix the problem. So I did.
And about losing people, if you are good friends now, their graduating won't change that. There's so much technology now that you can still be good friends with people all over the world, it's amazing if you think about it! And if you're speaking symbolically, I've had that happen and have yet to figure out how to make it stop....
Love you! I know a lot of people aren't Miley Cyrus fans, but I am, and I know they don't actually listen to her songs. Sometimes the artist isn't good, but the messages are. Listen to "The Climb" it always helps me get through tough times. In the Hannah Montana movie someone says, "Life's a climb, but the view's great."
13 days :)