Aileen Jong.

AILEEEEN, this wall post is for youuuu!

My facebook was blocked and I really wanted to respond to you, but since Facebook blocked me from replying on your wall, I had to resort to blogs. and you said you followed my blog, so.. haa.


Okay, so I have multiple points.

1. I MISS YOU SO MUCH. SOSOSOSO MUCH. do you remember when you, me, and Christine were like TWINS/TRIPLETS and everyone said we looked alike? I wish you could go to TAF this year, I miss you so much! I was really looking forward to seeing you too. OHman, I really wish you could go. but I stalked your & Christine's wall-to-wall and I saw that you had the camp conflict.. :/ it stinks! I miss you so much! I'll definitely let you know how TAF is! We'll be missing you the whole time! And hopefully we'll be able to meet up again soon. ^______^;

2. Music player.
first you have to go to playlist.com to make a playlist.
then on your blog thing, add the gadget, well type in the search box "music playlist" and there should be like one with the program, but some weird dude made it and there's a weird background int he playlist.
well all you have to do is get the number of your playlist (which is in the URL) and type it in the square that the dude provided for the URL number, then you can remove the background and insert your own, and wah lah, you have your own playlist! and whenever you wanna add songs, just go back to playlist.com and you can change it and it automatically updates the one on your profile.

teehee :)



I MISS YOU SO MUCHHHH! Hope you have fun @ camp! We'll be thinking of you! ♥

Friends.

stronghold. ♥*

Some people are unpredictable.

and some aren't.


but sometimes you want to believe that the person is something they're not.

Right when you're thinking everything's okay, and you're best friends,

Something happens and well you guys aren't so tight anymore.

My mom always told me that if you get too close to someone,

eventually, you'll grow apart. You won't last long.

and sadly I think it's true.

I've learned from past experiences, if you're too close to someone for too long,

and you establish TOO MUCH trust, (yes, there is such thing, I believe.)

It just doesn't turn out well.

Sometimes I tell myself that there's exceptions for that,
that some friends will really stick with you all your life.
but no matter how TIGHT and TOGETHER we feel right now,
is that really going to apply in the future?
You might say right now that we're going to be friends forever and keep in touch no matter what direction we go in,
but search yourself for a minute. will you REALLY do that?
Or are you just telling yourself that, for comfort?

Some people I've only known for a few years.
and yet they're my best friends. I normally don't admit that I have best friends. I don't like segregating/dividing up my friends.
Well, I kind of do. but I don't like saying it.

ha, well. and some people that I've only known for like a year or half a year,
it seems like we're so close, and it could go nowhere but uphill.

What stinks is, I don't know that. no one knows that. no matter what group you're in or how much time you spend together, you don't know the future.
you don't know what's going to happen. if you grow apart, or stay together.
sure, you tell yourself all that to make yourself feel better,
as a sense of security and belonging
but I think inside we all know that some things can't last forever

I'm not saying that all of our friends are going to be gone in our futures

but I'm saying that it is unpredictable. You don't know what's going to happen.




I think all you can do right now is hang on to the friends you've got and cherish your time together. And what happens, happens for a reason. No matter how much we don't want it to.

But I love my friends. They're there for me in EVERYTHING I do, and I'm so extremely blessed to have them.

so YOU. if you're reading this, you're my friend. because you care.


:) Thanks for being my friend. through everything.


Ick, I feel so mushy-gushy. but it's a good mushy-gushy. like a warm and fuzzy mushy gushy.

^______________^;


So basically, I'm going to sum things up. Cause I'm even confusing myself right now.


I don't know what's going to happen in the future, but I do know what's going to happen today. and Today, and as for the PRESENT, I'm going to keep my friends with me, close. If we grow apart in the future, you still definitely made an impact on my life and I'm blessed to even have met you. But let's not talk about that now. I don't even like thinking about the future. I'm blessed to have you in my life NOW, and I cherish and love you as a friend. Thanks for being there, and you guys are all in my heart, always. All of my friends, are like my family.




Thank you for everything. Thank you for caring.







ALRIGHTS no more mushy-gushy ness ^_____^;



With love, Maria

CONGRATS ANTHONY AND VIVIANE!

Congratulations to Anthony and Viviane Cho on their marriage! It was an amazing ceremony, so touching and so emotional, I cried hahaha. It was so sweet. I loved it.

It brought both churches back together, and it was REALLY nice seeing everyone again. Sometimes I just really miss the good ol' times.

Congrats! May your lives be filled with love and joy :)

God bless your marriage! May he be with you as you continue to live your lives together!

Thank you for everything!


Congrats! ^-^

Pardon My Absence.

Hello all, (or none)

Pardon my absence from this wonderful world of bloggin'.
Last week I found out randomly that people DO read my blogs & it's like WHOA ALL AT ONCE WHAT and I became really self conscious of it... but now I'm just deciding to pretend I never heard any of it teeheehee. but Thanks for reading, guys. :)
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OKAYTOPIC. NEWTOPIC. NOMORESELFCONSCIOUSNESS.
I like sticking all of my words together :)

So the other day, I was thinkin'.

I don't know how long y'all have known me, but I was told that when I was little I used to smile. A LOT. AND LIKE. BE HAPPY GO LUCKY. AND STUFF.

Now, now. Calm your horses. I'm not saying I don't smile & I'm not happy anymore, but I know that I don't have that 24/7 smile that people used to talk about.

Sure, they were probably exaggerating. But I do know that once in a while I get extremely depressed about NOTHING AT ALL, (or maybe sometimes something,) but I know that sometimes things upset me extremely easily.

I don't know, I can't really give you an example right now... but I usually get upset easily, sometimes. SOMETIMES*. Like I don't know, sometimes I'm really bipolar... I'm really happy one moment but then something happens, or someone says something that really IRKS me and I'm just like, oh, poo. :|

YEAH. SO UH. what was I talking about? Oh, the past. right.

I think as life goes on, you're faced with challenges and let's say, OBSTACLES/HURDLES in the RACE OF LIFE. AROUND THE RACE TRACK.

You can either try your best, and JUMP across the hurdle with pride and determination, or you can not try as hard, and trip over the hurdle... getting past it, but getting injured in the way, & not learning anything new.

Of course, you could also just STOP running and walk around the hurdle but seriously, you'd get disqualified from the track meet. Or something. there'd be consequences, I know that much.


I think everything in life happens for a reason.
Am I being overdramatic? yes. In my head, there's a soap opera goin' on.

Anyhoo. yeah, I truly believe that. For example. if something terrible happens and I'm just like in ANGUISH and I completely wish it didn't happen, I just think that God has a plan for me and everything I'm going through and the path I'm walking is on his map for me.

I think of God's plan for me like a map. Yes, I can go stray, and I can walk off the path into the Forbidden Forest (Harry Potter reference!), but in the end he pulls me through, gives me directions to go back to the right path, or the main path, and eventually I end up in the right place, the place where I belong, the place where I want to be.

You could think of the "stray paths" the 'hurdles' or the obstacles I referred to.

The thing is, I've talked about this topic before. and I'll stress it again. Whenever you're going through something bad, or a big problem... what's the one thing almost everyone thinks?

During their moments of pain and suffer, what's the one thing that EVERYONE thinks?


that they're alone.


I'll admit it, I'm afraid to be alone.
Okay, not afraid. Well.. yeah, kinda afraid. okay, I need a better word choice.

not as much "AFRAID", as I just DON'T LIKE being alone. I feel insecure and just vulnerable. I feel, weak and not proud. I don't feel like myself and I just feel, like I've failed everyone and I'm not good enough.


YEAH. OKAY. maybe afraid. because I don't like feeling those things. I don't like feeling rejected, or being by myself.

Well, sometimes I do. Sometimes I like it just me, myself, and I. ANTISOCIALITY. Sometimes I really do like being by myself.

but is it always really Me, Myself, and I? or is there, uh, a fourth perspective? er, not perspective... person*? hehe.

Erurhm. WELL BASICALLY. God's always there. simple and that's it.

I think that when you like being alone, it's time that God wants you to reflect on Him and everything that you've gone through and everything that He's done for you. That's the time he's really given you to think and just be alone.

So yes, I do believe sometimes it's okay to be alone...



and when you feel alone, you're really not.

I knew someone who legitimately was scared of being alone.
Yeah, well.

You're never really truly alone, even if no physical being is near you.

Think about who you have with you.

No, maybe not visually. Maybe not physically.

Inside you, yoooo.

:DDDD

God's always with youuuu!




Hopefully, that'll give you a reason to smile ^_______^

SLEEEEEEEEP

I'm writing this blog about this topic for 2 reasons.
1. I'm extremely tired.
2. I have somethin' to share about said topic. ^______^

"Sleep, those little slices of death; Oh how I loathe them."- Edgar Allen Poe


My mom once told me that people sleep for 30 years, in their whole life time. that's 30% of their whole life, if you live to be 100.

Yeah, that's all.

I'll leave you to ponder that.



^________________^;