believe in yourself. believe in yourself. believe in yourself.

ha. that's what I'm trying to convince myself. that I'm worth believing.

i don't know how much i can say about this..
but i guess this ties into my last 'what hurts the most' blog post,
when I say that it hurts the most when the person you love,
just says the wrong thing.
something you didn't want to hear.
so bad, it hurts.
and it hurts more,
when you find out
that through everything
they don't believe in you.



that, I think... just makes it harder to believe in yourself.

is it too much to ask, for someone, at the right time.. to say that they believe in you?
I know it's weird. if you randomly go up to someone.. "hey. I believe in you."
but if someone did that right now.. I swear, I'd be touched.

and yes, some of your other friends might console you.
but.. even though that cushions the fall..
I think it hurts a little bit more..
because the thought that the person you love can't even say those words...
those simple, simple words...
and yet your friends can...

I don't know. hurts a little bit more inside.
knowing that the person you're trying to impress, trying to raise faith in....
won't accept it. won't listen.
won't believe. in you. when you really need them to.

whatever. i dont know if im making any sense right now.

no one reads this anyway.



bed. hopefully it'll be sunnier in the morning. please let it be sunnier in the morning.
gosh, i just hope I can prove her wrong.

ha. who am I kidding.

I guess some things just aren't worth believing in.