“A guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate. The one you can tell your dreams to. He’ll brush the hair out of your eyes. Send you flowers when you least expect it. He’ll stare at you during the movies, even thought he paid $8 to see it. He’ll call to say goodnight or just because he is missing you. He’ll look in your eyes and tell you, you’re the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you’ll believe it."
sometimes I think that my idea of a relationship is TOO ideal. too perfect. too unbelievable.
it's too "Disney". too, fake. too imaginary, too fantasy.
all the same, I just wish that maybe it could come true.
the line in that quote that appealed to me the most was "he'll tell you you're the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you'll believe it." honestly, I wish I could.
believe that, that is.
because recently, my self esteem is going down the toilet. which is ironic, because last night was homecoming which should be the best night ever, but my self esteem just kept shrinking.
and it's my own fault, too. I just can't seem to help it but push my own self esteem down.
I don't know why. but I hate that about myself.
just something else to add to the list.
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