And if you come around again, then I will take the chain from off the door

Adsfajewklsdfjakdslf. I don't believe in relationships. I just never think that they'll last. I just haven't seen one example of a relationship that's lasted for a long period of time, no matter how perfect they seem for each other. (In high school, at least. College relationships, I think, can last.)but, pretty much, I don't believe in relationships in high school. so then, why is it that at this point in my life I can't help but want what I believe doesn't exist? The guy who asked me to homecoming. we're really good friends, I'd say. and I think I like him. like, LIKE LIKE him. hahaa. I hate admitting that to myself, though. I don't like liking someone. It makes me feel vulnerable; my feelings are too easily affected, merely by what someone else says or does. But.. it's just the idea of flattery, I guess. I'm flattered he even wants to go to homecoming with me. and I think because of this level of flattery that I feel, I'm in a way obligated to like him. that sounds weird. 'obligated' to like him. that's not exactly what I mean, though. like, I like him out of my own free will- it's just, I don't feel like I'm good enough for the kid. like, he could do so much better. Sometimes I catch moments where he /might/ show signs of liking me - but then again, I misread signs and I over interpret the little things that happen.. but gosh, if he did like me, man that'd be unbelievable. like, literally, I wouldn't believe it. it's just.. so weird. knowing that someone likes me. or, not knowing, but potentially thinking that maybe he does. hahaha. I just don't think I'm worth people liking me, y'know? gah, this low self esteem crap has got to go, haha. but man. if he does, I'd be flattered out of this world. mm, bedtime. seeya'll later.