I hate this feeling.

I hate this feeling of liking somebody.
I don't really believe in relationships - I feel like they'll never last and you're just going to end up getting hurt in the end. hahah, pessimistic, huh?
I don't like liking someone because that usually makes me feel so vulnerable, so easily affected, and that feeling of weakness because your feelings seem to rely completely on the other person's actions or feelings.
How, when this person of interest seems to ignore you and not talk to you, you suddenly get really worried and freak out that he doesn't like you.
Or, maybe that's just me.
I just hate that I actually LIKE someone right now.. especially because I've liked him before.
and he keeps giving me mixed signals, which doesn't help, either.
GAAH so many questions.
man, I wish I could just come out with it, and be like "oh hey, I like you. oh, you don't like me? kay, nice knowin' ya, thanks." and move on with my life.
ahaha too bad I don't have the guts for that.
Ailkesjfaiklwdsfjioklads I don't like this feeling of liking someone.

MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP MAKE IT STOP.

I don't like the feeling that I'm one of those girls who's heart flutters everytime they think of they guy they like, and smile everytime they think of the times they had.

it just makes me feel too vulnerable, too easily hurt.

and I don't like it. I like it, but I don't like it. what is wrong with me?! gahaoiweksldfj.