People Change.

People change. everyone changes. either if it was something small, or something big that caused them to change, people are changing, inside and out, every single day.

But is it always for the better?

I think there's an obvious answer to that.

Of course, it's NOT always for the better.

I was asked today if I HATED anyone. if I completely disliked anyone.

And my answer was, that I didn't hate anyone. No, not anyone. Some qualities of some people irk me incredibly.

But one thing that irks me the most.. is VANITY.

I think that most people change because of society. I had made a post about this previously, but I felt the necessity to blog about it again, because this is something I've felt through the first few weeks of school.


So as you all know, TAF is such a big part of my life. Taiwanese American Foundation. Three words, and when I hear them I just get such a great feeling.

Well, I was talking to someone at TAF. I was talking about how everyone cared so much about how they look and how they are portrayed, even somewhere with so much ACCEPTANCE and LOVE.

I asked them why people there cared SO incredibly much about how they looked at TAF. The answer was, "You only have one week to make a great impression to last for the rest of the year. You HAVE to care."

And I just sat there and thought about that. If you think about it, that's true. One reason why I think TAF is so special is because it's only one week through the whole year. The people you meet and become friends with there are people that you'll remember throughout the year as the person they were and the person they are at TAF.

At TAF, I truly open myself up. I really don't care about how I look-- to tell the truth, I don't care about how I look at school either. I'll get to that in a bit.

But at TAF.. truly? I just threw on a t-shirt. Just to be comfortable. T-shirt, shorts. At TAF is somewhere I can be myself. I don't worry so much about judgement, because I felt the love and the bond of the TAF family, and I felt the acceptance. It's truly such an amazing feeling.. to not care about anything except for the people around you. But I feel like that's not always true. Like that answer.. even at TAF, people care about how they look.

now, I'm not saying that I think people should not care about how they look. Because then if that was true, then we'd all walk around looking like slobs.

haha, and that's definitely not good.

But I'm saying.. one thing that really irks me is how society and how people change other people to become vain and just.. change completely. I know some people who completely change in order to fit in or be accepted. I mean, okay. Throw on some nice-lookin' clothes, buy a new pair of shoes, that's all fine and dandy. but to change your whole PERSONALITY for the simple goal of being ACCEPTED?

I don't know. To me, that just doesn't make any sense.

(by the way-- I hope this isn't offending anybody. these are just my personal thoughts, I didn't write this with anything or anybody in mind.)

I was talking to someone lately.. and we were talking about how it was really hard to just be yourself in school because in school people don't accept you as easily as people do at TAF. At TAF, I feel like it's a place where people are accepted for their true selves, and it's simply amazing.

Can you tell that my favorite part about TAF is the acceptance, and that feeling of belonging?

Yeah. well. at school, that's hard to find.

I feel like I can't be accepted. I feel like sometimes, when I truly show my true self, or I have those moments where I take off my mask and I show my real personality. I never really feel safe enough at school to be myself. Because truly, at school I'm really afraid of judgement. Oftentimes, I feel like I don't belong.


I feel like a "scuba diver in an ocean of fish". (Quote from a friend)

At school, even though I do have my close friends and I love them dearly.. sometimes I just don't feel the security to be myself and be accepted for it. I feel like around every corner, and every tile in the hallway, there's someone there to judge you.

I was talking to a friend. We were talking about how he was really afraid of judgement.

I'm so afraid of judgement. Well, I used to be. Yes, past tense.

TAF 2010 changed me. I'm not longer afraid. I live by the fact that if somebody doesn't like me for who I truly am, then it's okay. I'm not going to pretend to be someone else and change myself in order to fit in and be "accepted" by people who don't know and don't understand and don't accept the real me.


Anyway. that.. is not what this thing is about.

Sorry, I oftentimes go on rampages of random topics and tangents.

I'm saying, that people change.

I know someone... an innocent little girl. she was my little sister that I took care of.

Well, I realized that she REALLY cared about her image and how she looked. (She's a Freshman, only one year younger, by the way.)

And I also have a friend-- we're really close. He really cared about his image and how he's portrayed in front of his peers and he really wanted to make a great real impression.


I don't know.. I just don't like how society causes people to change themselves in order to be accepted.


I just want you all to know-- I accept each and every one of you. for who you TRULY are. You don't need to change to fit in. People love you for who you are. and if they don't it's okay. then you don't need to make an impact on them. People who accept you for who you are are your true friends.




You're beautiful the way you are. Don't change that.

Don't change who you are in order to be accepted.

Because you'll only be truly accepted when you are your true self.