jealousy and worth.

so I was thinking today.. do you realize how easily people become jealous?
you can say that you don't.
but I know I do. I get jealous when people have great skill.. and I want to be just like them. but I know inside that I can't do it. even if it's art, or music.. there's always someone better than you, and I guess you just have to strive to be as good as them.

sometimes I think that there is nothing for me in the world.. nothing I'm good at.
and maybe that's true. but that doesn't mean you, or me, should give up and stop trying. I realized that. just because you may have been told that you are stupid/bad/worthless etc., it doesn't mean you should stop trying.
prove yourself to those people who don't believe you.
make them take back their words.
show them who you really are, and who you can be.
don't be scared to show yourself.

I don't know what's wrong with me lately.. but I'm just in a very weird situation now a days. I'm really worried about what people think of me. usually.. I just go off being weird and shrug off weird looks/comments. now.. it always hits me hard. not hard, necessarily.. just differently. I think it's high school. or maybe I'm just needing a dose of TAF to remind me who I am. either or, I just have to tell myself that I'm proud of what I am. and you know what. I am. it's surprising. even though it hits me when people make fun of me.. I laugh WITH them. I don't know. I just gotta get over it. it's just a moment.


olive juice guys. spread some more love.
goodnight. have a good week!