Loneliness

When Elias said how much he hated loneliness, I don't think I really understood.
But now that I do, I know what he means.
I hate feeling lonely.. the feeling that no one is here with you.. that one one will help you.. no one is there for you..
And you can't help wondering if they betrayed you/left you/are mad at you or not.
Yes, I say sorry alot. Why? Because I'm always afraid that someone I care about is mad at me. And I would hate that; because you don't know what happens from that point on.
Either if its forgiveness or they hold a grudge.. I don't think anything will ever be the same.
Because in your concsience, you know that it happened.. and for some reason that obstacle in your relationship with you and that friend just doesn't seem to disappear, no matter how much you want to smooth it over .
I hate being lonely. I hate feeling helpless and that I have to face everything alone. But its time to face reality- sometimes you have to be alone. Sometimes, its a test.

But really... you're never alone. No matter how alone you feel.
God is, and will always be with you.
Doesnt that just make you feel so...wonderful?
Even if you feel that you're alone.. you don't have anyone..
remember that you always DO have someone... no matter what happens, and no matter what will happen.
God is always with you.
You've heard that poem before.. right?

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticedthat during the low periods of my life,when I was suffering fromanguish, sorrow or defeat,I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,“You promised me Lord,that if I followed you,you would walk with me always.But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my lifethere have only been one set of footprints in the sand.Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”
The Lord replied,“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand,is when I carried you.”

So, there it is, everyone. God will always be with you and help you through the obstacles in your life.. and I suppose, that will just make your relationship with God even the more stronger..

And Elias' sermon always gets to me, especially recently, since its my last year and I know I'll have to be saying goodbye soon.

I won't be saying permanent goodbyes.

I'll see you all again. I know I will.

God Loves Us All. (: