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I don't know who saw/noticed, but last night sucked.
haha, I know that's weird.. but that's the best way I can put it.

my dad was just not very nice, in the least. let's just say he said some things that really hurt me. and I didn't know how to handle it, but blog about it.
I was pretty sad. I didn't show it, but I was just hurt by all the things he called me and what he said. I deleted the blogs- but I'll forever remember everything he said.

I might not remember everything I said, though. hehe.

anyway, I was on my Formspring and someone had told me something.
they said they saw my blogs, and they were worried about me, as I seemed so happy.
strangely enough, that touched me. deep. it was nice knowing someone cared. therefore, I know I deleted those previous blogs, because I just don't like telling people what goes on with me, but I just want to thank everyone, and you, whoever you are, (darn formspring and it's anonymity.)
but thank you so much. I know I expressed that in my Formspring ANSWER, but I just want to tell you how nice that made me feel. it made me feel that even though you were 'creeping', someone cared.

and to tell the truth, that's all I needed to feel.
but I also need to say something else.

it was tough to forget, all that happened the previous days. it hurts, I'm not gonna lie. and I'm probably never going to forget what happened.
life-changing? I think yes.

but here's some happy parts for y'all. yes, there's a happy part.

I was listening to Klove when I got home from my flute lesson, and then they started talking about how there are some people who are very depressed and just have trouble with many things in their lives, and they started praying for them.

it was then I realized that through everything that happens- God pulls us out in the end. these obstacles, no matter how tough they will be: God is with us through our whole trip. that he is watching us, and that he is there for us.

that HE understands, when we feel like no one else can.

I don't know, that just, snapped me out of it.
I had forgotten everything I'd thought previously.

after the rain.
after the thunderstorm- there's a rainbow.

and that's how I'd been thinking- until recently.
I don't know what'll happen in the future,
I don't know what'll happen tonight,
I don't know what'll happen tomorrow.

but I know whatever happens, He is with me and He understands, He is walking with me, He is carrying me, He is holding my hand, I am with Him. and with Him, everything will turn out in the end.


"The sun is always going to come out in the morning, even if it's a cloudy day."